DUTY-FREE
There is a prayer without
a prayer, the purposelessness
of Th'Winter like a cemetery,
its scattered snowflakes
filling up th'Voids like stones,
th'bait defying the bite's biggest,
those ogres of Man's Omnipotence:
Pretense & Common Sense, carnivorous
lusting after The Invisible insensible
Warmth sipping at the Summers' dizzying,
th'hundreds of husks of April scattered
& rotting upon th'plains once awash in our falls
now asleep to our calls in the cold echoing
amongst the shades & hush of Tomorrow's ever-
diminishing mountains standing tall
(around) made flesh in th'forges of Fate,
doomed to the pools of comfort
& able to ignore the rain which (like ghostly
armies) melt to th'white drams of darkness
like reminders at the bottom of dreams
... while The Light of Day,
hugging the leaping hills (away, up
in the distance) incapable of stooping to The Common
Man, hung by their necks from th'tall nowheres [sic]
of Destiny... shadows & shades & choked
hearts in the exceeding--whose naked pearled arms
set up innumerable rows of beds
& multiple nosegays blooming in th'Garden
of Ignorance: reasoning like a razor blade
into its glad-or-sadness turning whichway
& whichway to Nothingness' maddening Only...
instead, without a prayer, passing
under the boughs that sway changeless
& dumb & strange, undone, in the hands of Forever
hunting Th'Wholeness, Man's motionless
climbing memories amain, demented,
lusting after the lost, elsewhere, lame
& yet leaping amongst th'unlasting,
trying to lead the aims of the darkness
sweating the hopes of the day: we lie exhausted
& yet trying to marshal ourselves again
with all the un-meaning drums of th'brain
making th'Mind mean & wintry
but stained in the torches of Knowledge, O
the human grey at last getting into th'immaculate
ivory, the longed for ceramics of the human skin,
without a prayer, holding to no tree,
witnessing the World's withering snowstorms
(of the norm) piling & piling tombstones
like never-ending pains upon each other
suspended in the wintry Brain
there's yet a prayer struggling against th'plain,
embroidered into remembrances of a Spring
coiled--yet casual ... in the vultures
sculpturing with their shadows Th'Sights
of Plenty, th'warmest emotions, the actions
of the wise: still decorating the living trees
--those tranquil trophies of The Light
like torches plucking glimpses of Th'Truth
out of The Sudden's unnatural leanings
always overhung with & mouthing Th'Delicate, un-
diminishable ornaments of our undying
death the ultimate tombstone: calm at its conquest,
Oblivion upon the slab once verdure, now but sprawling
over the long & short
... Instead, suspended
above the Winter toiling at the interminable
like a terror, ever shrinking to its myths
& shades, slipping silvery heads so bald,
without a prayer, searching with their looks
(like lynxes of Th'Light): for Beauty (the blossoms
feeding at their fragrances), and laughing in the faith
(that Love the laughter of Th'Light)... but
also: failures like wounded lynxes wandering aimless
at Night without a prayer while the Spring's bright balms
like some shocking explosion of hairy words
feeling so cool & calm in the always-sunbaked be-
gainings of Man: amongst th'shaded ancient groves [sic]
of Plenty, shared amongst All, once
and now only suggested in the graves so calm, so
cold, so kind, sparkling rows of tombs
still lingering without a scent of man's
telling of the unintended Sense,
reminding everybody not there
they've been at all (almost dissociated,
eternal metaphors) plucked from forgotten phrases
of Fall... half desiccated & withdrawn
stand (but wounded in Th'Shattering):
those insensate shards of Meaning
like indiscriminate minutes, Matter forever
unaltered, unalterable where it stands (in
the Mind), no, not even by Th'Dull depleted but
warm! and waiting, precious in its own plenty:
th'mind alters, yes, but th'Reality within
also alters with it, too, so that in its reality:
Th'Mind never alters--since its reality is one
of ever-altering reality)... like elegant roses
upon the ledge of Love, clutching at Life's call,
the laurels of Th'Will like Tomorrow's sheltering
blessings, the lilies of laughter, keenness' apples,
Paradise yet undepleted of its pears, so precious
in God's sight, yet lovely in its Youth's so
unintelligible yearnings, even treason stripped
of its crime, where, instead:
th'parched winds
are now wording their way through the un-
toward subtleties of Night, turned out of
September taverns, drunk in th'starkest lack,
resigned to th'indiscriminate tremblings
of th'Cold outside, its call like a canker
in the spine: digging out the monsters
of Th'Mind without a prayer resigned
to rituals of the too late
like caterpillars lulling themselves to death
with their running dread are planted: The Unheard,
ripening & turning abed in their graves
under the frozen tears of Spring
without a prayer you can't get it, O no,
not... without a prayer you'll never get it,
can't even ever be: without a prayer
a curious rodent blazing forth the beauty
of being... retraces through the resilient
oblivion: its traces & examines (so painfully)
its solitary stance without a prayer, backtracking
through the inimitable diadems of Night
or through existence's many slimy manners,
smiles like creatures crouching before our cringing
sight, down its terrible world, down to th'mousiest
resignation of all life... like Th'Wise,
without a prayer, without daring the ultimate
(decision) that tells whether (however it hurts
at its administering): Truth is The Anodyne
of the World most perfect, even where no perfection exists
--since but to be is Perfection already,
staring upon those uncompromising roses
of some unnameable dawn (beyond comprehension
to us stones) stuck like so many forgotten bones
in the unending snows... like the flesh
of the world, frozen yet flaring upon the fine
Mind at its most anonymous formulas of self-explaining
... are we, O Autumn's diminishing ceremonies,
(even) the darkening white ripping through
our traditions' toughest stitches of Dark-
ness without a prayer of Sight, falls, falls
Th'Human Light without a Past, without a Future
it can't fashion from its own actual, existing
Sight... like th'peachblow rain
discovering careless snails embroidering
porcelain trails through Time, th'wet
browns of boughs twisting out of the bowels
of whence... or withering towards the greens
of then, those never-ending nows
like Chaos' very unlocking snarls
inwardly-curling around us (tight)
... or foaming invisible in their self-turnings,
upside-down years: one & all, upstanding
in th'dizzying dull without a prayer
spelled in th'granite of life, illiterate
& weighed down by the illusions playing
in the light: sleep the seeds (so long in
their waiting) under snow & th'other corpses
piled mindlessly up like a hating (so cold,
so coldly) without a prayer, lips & all,
like so many liars sleep The Holders of Truth
... the Silence that must inevitably devour this Life,
eyes hungry & stark, while above them rage in the noisy
(dancing of vultures, scavengers & flies)
as if stalking (like Truth's unavoidable
interrogations): The Meaning wounded to the blood
but only shedding th'driest lies,
men yet living & bright and consuming themselves
to stone(s), O carelessly strewing themselves
over the fields of Th'Cold (in the belief
that this is how The World gets its warmth:
out of Death)... whispering in their desperation
without a prayer: the lips fall numb
(to the cold), starving sans Love,
while the underfoot stirrings
of all those forgotten bones (burning
under the snows) but always ever-learning to love
The Cold, from their macabre yearnings
calling lips Love the Cold! Keep th'Cold
burning! & burning! unheard under all
the plain purposes of Mankind pouring
& pouring like rain(fall), there lie: Th'Unlistened-to,
the Still Unheard, all of those whom
we are making into Th'Lovers of The Cold (out of
our most heated hate): the Cold, by our denying them
th'meats of our Warmth... whether through
some unwitting selfishness of ours, or
out of some terrible lack of feelings (of our
own): springs Man! from the Cold, the Cold!
or else... or else do we winter eternally un-become,
in our loss, eternally...